I am on a journey to better myself and others. I might not have had the worst life but I haven’t had the best either; not in the last decade I should say. I have had my share of trials and tribulations but they have given me strength to accept what I can’t change and learn from my mistakes.
I know for a fact that I should be in a much better place in my life than I am and I am working my butt off to get where I know I should be. I feel like I’m at the right place in my life to fulfill where I should have been. I have bigger goals with deeper meanings and will change my life as well as my children and others.
Me not following the “original” path is forcing me to lead a better one. We all have 2 sides to our conscious: the angel and the devil. I think the devil won too many times. So much that I thought the possible was impossible. I gave up on my dreams because I got discouraged. I took another route that ended up leaving me unfulfilled. I never got where I wanted to be. Every time I made 10 steps forward, I got knocked 20 steps back. It was never-ending and very draining. Long hours and low pay. That’s not what I wanted. I wanted better hours and better pay; freedom to a certain extent. And now having children, I definitely want freedom to work when and how I want. And I’m on my way there.
I’m steady learning that no matter what I do, if it’s positive and brings me joy, the devil will always be around to shake things up. He doesn’t want to see me succeed. He wants me to suffer. It gives him a good old laugh. BUT I’m restoring my faith in God and I know that He has a purpose for me: to pay it forward.